Trisha’s soft moans became louder and closer together. She looked into my eyes as she edged closer to her orgasm. When she finally came the look on her face was one of emotional completeness. I was surprised at her response which reminded me so much of Anne when we made love.
I am not that clueless but I will admit I was surprised at the emotion written so large on her face. She held me tightly as her orgasm took her. Her legs and arms held onto me like she never wanted to let go. I had reached my limit and my orgasm was awesome in intensity. The combination of her beauty and the emotions shared between us was too much and I orgasmed with an intensity I had only ever felt with Anne. It was wonderful and it scared the shit out of me.
My fears weren’t allayed when Trisha looked at me with such adoration that it nearly undid me. “I love you, Ben. I have for a long time.”
Tess slid over next to her sister and kissed her lips. She then looked up at me. “I’m in love with you too Ben. We just wanted you to know.”
I was shocked by their revelation. It was true that I loved them and in a different world I would have loved to find out what that meant. Thoughts of losing Anne took away any joy I might have had in their revelations. “You both know that I care for you deeply but Anne is my life and I can’t, I won’t, give her up. I’m so very sorry if I’ve led you on in some way. I never meant to hurt either of you.”
Tess smiled up at me. “No worries, Ben. We would never come between you and Anne. We can’t help what we feel for you but we would never do anything to make you unhappy. You and Anne belong together. We want to love you too. We don’t expect your utter devotion or some shit like that.”
The truth is that I loved them too but the cost was too high. I couldn’t see a scenario where we could explore that love without it taking something from Anne. Anne deserves everything I can give her. How could I justify a relationship with two other women? As much as the three of us wanted to take things to the next level, it wasn’t going to happen.
Trisha saw the look on my face and rushed to reassure me. “Ben, we’re not asking for a traditional romance. We love Anne and the last thing we would do is try to replace her. Hell, Tess and I aren’t even close to thinking about a long-term relationship, let alone some sort of polyamorous marriage.
“One of these days Tess and I will meet the right guy and probably end up married. We will love our husbands as Anne loves you because the two of you have shown us what true love really is. Through it all, for my entire life, I will still be in love with you. I don’t need you to change your life in any way. I want you to be as happy as possible.”
For once, Tess left her fun nature behind and was serious. “We know that you love us and that’s all we really need. Being with you like this is wonderful and we really hope we can do this again in the future. Whether we do or not our feelings won’t change.
“Fucking you has been awesome but making love to you is so much more amazing. Knowing that we all love each other makes it so much better.”
Their understanding and acceptance showed a maturity unexpected for their age. The last thing I wanted to do was walk away from this wonderful thing out of fear. We would see where the future took us. I would keep my eyes wide open and make sure we didn’t start down a path to heartache. “I do love you both. In a perfect world, your family and mine will love each other in every way. The world is not perfect and there is a lot at stake for all of us. I have thought about that a lot.”
Both grinned at me before Trisha spoke, “Yeh, we kind of expected that because you protect everyone you love. It’s in your nature to worry about everyone else. Relax, Ben. Anne, Mom, Dad, Tess, and I all want the same things you want. It will be better than your perfect world scenario. So much better.”
Her sincerity was obvious and I decided right then that I wouldn’t waste another moment worrying about what might happen. I needed to be present at this moment with the two young women I loved. They must have read the change in my face because they both gave me thousand-watt smiles. It’s so rare in life to feel such a rush of happiness and it’s nearly overwhelming in intensity. It’s a feeling we all live for and so seldom achieve.
There were now four women in my life giving me that wonderful gift. I couldn’t believe how blessed I was to have that with one woman. I didn’t have a clue how I could make Anne as happy as she makes me. How the hell was I arrogant enough to think I could do four women justice? I didn’t know if I was up for the job but I was damn well going to give it my best shot. I would be some kind of blithering idiot if I didn’t.
I laid down between them and they snuggled close. It had been a strange, emotional, and draining day. One moment I was kissing both on the lips and the next sunlight was peeking through the curtains. I watched Trisha and Tess sleep for a while until nature let me know it existed. I slipped out of bed and began to prepare for the day.
I let the twins sleep. There was no rush for them to get up and I needed some thinking time anyway. I treated myself to a pot of Jamaican Blue Mountain coffee from freshly ground beans and carried it out onto the pool deck. As I set the pot down I saw Lynn come out onto her deck and stretch. “Wow, I’m definitely awake now!”
Her sexy laugh was followed by her smile. “It’s nice to know I can wake you up.”
I chuckled. “You ready for coffee? I have some awesome stuff right here.”
She started walking to her gate and I ducked back inside to get the cups and whatnot. I stepped back out onto the deck and she was sitting at the table looking like a million bucks. “You look amazing in the morning.”
Her smile got bigger. “Well, thank you. I have to say that you look yummy this morning as well.”
We sat in companionable silence, sipping our coffee and pondering life. I thought of Anne and Lynn looking at me with concern. “Are you all right Ben? You look like you just lost your best friend.”
I shook my head trying to find the words. Nothing came to mind so I just started babbling. “I have been blessed with the loving attention of three beautiful women yet all I can think about when I have a moment is Anne. I miss her terribly and as wonderful as my time here has been, all I want to do is hold her in my arms again.”
Lynn studied me for a moment. “Are you feeling jealous or sorry about all that has happened?”
I shook my head. “Absolutely not. I want her to enjoy her time with Lance and Tera. She’s been experiencing things she never dreamed of and having a wonderful time. I don’t want to take that from her. I try very hard not to tell her how much I miss her because the last thing I want to do is make her feel guilty.”
Lynn smiled gently. “It sounds to me like you’re feeling just the way you should. You want Anne to be happy and you love her enough to suffer through missing her. You’re sacrificing some of your happiness for hers. I think that’s a very loving thing to do, even if it’s quite painful. Have you considered though that missing her isn’t what’s really bothering you? Stan is gone a lot and I do miss him. What makes me pine for him is that he is seldom with me as I have these wonderful sexual experiences. I’ve always wanted him to be a willing part of the adventure, to live it with me.”
“I also strongly suspect she is suffering in the same way. Yes, she’s enjoying the adventure, just like you are. That doesn’t change how she feels about you and her need to be close to you. Give her a call in a while and tell her honestly how you feel. I think if you tell each other how you feel perspective will return.”
I thought her advice was pretty good and decided to follow it. I called Anne at noon but her phone went to voice mail. I asked her to call me and went for a swim with Trisha and Tess. Two hours later I still hadn’t heard from her and my imagination started fucking with me. The twins picked up on my mood right away and kept me company while I obsessed about Anne. I tried Lance’s phone and it went to voice mail as well. Same result with Tera’s phone. Now I was really worried.
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Anne
Tom and Scott were at the door exactly on time, which told me they had been at the hotel for a while and had probably stood outside the suite door until the minute hand hit twelve. That gave me a bit of a thrill. That thrill was nice but not nearly as nice as the one that swept through me when they walked into the room. They are without a doubt two smoking hot men and I loved the look they gave me when they saw me in the dress they had sent me.
My dress was the definition of classy sexuality. It was the kind of dress a supermodel wore to a high society party. I felt like such a poser when I first put it on but after seeing my reflection in the mirror my attitude quickly changed. I looked good in it and I felt sexy as hell. I didn’t feel like a poser. I felt like a hot wife getting ready for her seduction. The anticipation was making me wet.
I didn’t find out until the next day what happened right after I left. Tera sat down with Lance. “Honey, I’m worried about Anne. She’s having a wonderful time until she has a moment alone. I can see the sadness on her face when she thinks no one is looking. She misses Ben terribly and I don’t think it’s because of a week apart. This open sexuality thing is brand new to both of them and it is something they wanted to share together. Neither of them will admit it because they don’t want the other to feel bad but I think I’m right.”
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