Will they tell the only people that love me that I am gone. Will my godfamily….no my family since Mary, Jennifer, Kelsey and Sarah no longer want me, miss me? I know that they would try to stop me if they knew these demons that twist my soul begging me to end it. They don’t know that I feel so light knowing that the darkness will be gone….forever.
Will there be a notice in the yearbook just to fade away like a leaf in the breeze. As I contemplate all these decisions I wonder what will happen to the four that I always tried to make proud. Would they care? Would they cry even shed tear at my demise, or would they just move on since my death is a joke to them just like my love and their’s for me. As I decide whether to end my existance or not I look out to the stars and hope that someone out there can ease my pain before it enshrines my essence as I fade into nothingness”
“ Please no more I don’t want to hear anymore.” Sarah says clutching her legs together
“ Aunt Sarah I doubt he would. He loves us to much. He is only venting……he wouldn’t follow through with it” Jennifer says before I see Sarah quickly get up and slap her niece
“ HOW DARE YOU! HAVE YOU BEEN LISTENING? WHAT IS IN THAT JOURNAL IS NOT A YOUNG MAN VENTING. HE IS DEEPLY HURT!” Sarah yells out while Jennifer looks on with wide eyes rubbing the left side of her face as Sarah‘s words sink in
“ Aunt Sarah calm down she is just saying what she feels. Look we all just need to think this all out. Maybe he is just somewhere thinking things out. He will be back here before we know it. Then we can all sit down with him and try to show him we do love him.” Kelsey says before going to her sister
“ And what if he doesn’t? What if he stays away from us? You both can’t see it because the only thing on your brains is when you’ll get fucked next. I can see it in your eyes that you don’t care about your brother. You don’t know what it’s like to love that one person that has stole your heart. I love Matt so much, but got distracted along the way.” Sarah says with tears as I get up going to her
“ Aunt Sarah how can you say that? We do love him, but we love sex since dad and you both got us into it also. I am sure when Matt comes home you can give him some pussy and all will be forgotten. Come on Jennifer let’s go over to Francine’s……and join her and dad.” Kelsey says as they start leaving the room
I pull Sarah up against my body while my own tears flow. Sarah places her head back on my left shoulder while her hands go to mine that are on her belly.
“ Oh Mary what are we going to do? I feel I lost a big part of my soul.” She asks while I feel her tears fall onto my hands
“ I don’t know darling except we wait for him. I want my son back, and want him to know I do love him.” I say turning my head to look in her eyes
“ Same here Mary. I love him so much and never wanted to hurt him. We were so stupid to be brainwashed by my brother.” She says with tears as I nod in agreement
“ Yes we were my beautiful Sarah. I should of never went along with Billy’s idea. I was so foolish, but the thought of all that sex was too tempting. It was like a piece of candy you love and I became addicted.” I say getting a nod from her
“ So what now Mary? We have no idea where he is, and he didn’t answer his phone.” She asks getting me to think
“ Well baby what do you want to do?” I ask feeling her turn to face me in my arms
“ Well I hope you don’t think I am weird, but I want to spend the day in this room so I can feel close to Mattybear. I don’t care what we do as long as we stay in here for awhile.” She tells me as I give her a slight smile
“ I would like that darling, but one thing I want us both nude so we can get his scent on our bodies.” I say to see her beautiful smile
“ I would love that Mary darling.” She says before placing fingers on eitherside of my top
She slowly pulls my top off revealing my breast. Sarah drops my top onto the floor before cupping both my firm breast. I let out a soft moan feeling her thumbs massage my nipples.
“ Mary I have always wished I was your real daughter. I would of loved to of been breast fed by you.” Sarah says as I smile before she leans in to take my left nipple into her warm wet mouth
“ Oh baby girl…I wish you were too.” I say letting out another moan
Sarah lowers her hands down to my pajamas to only slide them under the waistband. I feel her hands against my skin as they move to my ass. Oh god her hands feel so good upon my flesh while she sucks my nipple. It feels like when the kinds were babies again. I place my arms around her with one hand on her head.
“ Yesss baby…suck your mommies nipples….just like that….oh baby Matt use to suck them like that.” I say moaning with my eyes closed
She starts sliding my pajamas down off my waist. I can’t help but moan to what may come next. Sarah starts kissing down my body as I let her go. I look down to see my bottoms are to my knees then to my ankles. I step out of them to only be fully naked in front of her. I don’t know why I feel so different, but her seeing me like this feels so right. Sarah is on her knees looking up at me with that beautiful smile. Her hands go to my thighs beckoning me to spread them. I do letting her see my hairy cunt that is pleading to be made love to.
Sarah keeps her gaze up at me while slowly moving her right hand up. I feel her index finger trace my labia. I feel a electrical spark hit me while I place my hands on her head like I am asking her. Before I know it her mouth is on my womanhood. Oh it feels so good to feel her mouth, but this moment feels so different from all the other times she would eat me out. I let out a moan feeling her tongue lick my wet nether lips. I look down to see Sarah has her hand under the front of her shorts. She is rubbing her own love spot. I know she wants what she is doing to me just the same.
“ Sarah take your clothes off. I want us to make love on the bed of the man we both love.” I say to see her stop her advances
Sarah stands up to only take her top off while I take her shorts off her legs. Once nude we walk over to the bed. I go around to the right side and Sarah is on the left. We pull the cover down so it doesn’t get wet from our love making that is about to happen. We both get on the bed only to crawl to the other. Once in the middle we embrace placing our lips to the other.
We kiss like new lovers on this morning after reading the hurt we all gave to my son. I feel tears come to me hearing Sarah cry missing Matt just as much. This is not a normal kiss but a deep emotional one. I start pulling her along with me to lay down on our sides. Our legs entertwine together with hands running up and down the other’s bodies. Sarah moans as I seek her sexy ass to give it a squeeze. She breaks the kiss to only look in my eyes.
“ Mary I don’t want another man to touch me unless it’s Mattybear. I only want him to be the man that touches me.” Sarah says with her head on Matt’s pillow
“ I feel the same baby. I think this is a new start for you and I. When he comes home I think you and I have a long talk with him, and do what we can to show him that we do love him.” I say to see her smile
“ I agree Mary so much.” She says before we hear footsteps
We both look at the bedroom doorway to see Kelsey and Jennifer.
“ What are you two doing here?” I ask to see worried eyes
“ Well we couldn’t go. Jennifer and I have been talking and feel the same. Yes we still want the guys, but at the same time want our mother and aunt. Plus after knowing how Matt feels well we want to start new with him.” Kelsey says with some tears as Jennifer speaks up
“ Mom we want to spend the day with you both in Matty’s bed. We want to be as close as we can to him.” Jennifer says while I see Kelsey nod
I turn to look at my lover to see her eyes glaring at the two standing.
“ Ok but the thing is girls there is to be no man’s cum in this bed. Before you get in it at night you will douche. The only cum to be on these sheets is Matt’s and ours. I will not eat any man’s cum out of you. Your pussies will be clean before coming to bed as well your ass. The only cum that will touch my lips or my body is Matt’s. I am his woman in my heart. I love him so much that today has brought that love back in my soul.” Sarah says to get nods
“ The same for me girls. I know he is my son, but I am vowing myself to him and Sarah. I swear off your father. I don’t want him touching me. He has made us all hurt the one man that has shown us any kind of actual love. So if you truly want to be with us you will obey the new rules. And when your in here there are to be no clothes on. And we need a dildo that is compared to Matt’s manhood.” I say to get giggles
“ Mom we don’t even know how big his cock is.” Kelsey says as I shake my head
“ Actually I do. I sort of seen him a few months ago. He was changing and I just walked in to get the dirty clothes and was I ever wrong. He is bigger then your father and the guys if his indentation in his boxers was any giveaway.” I say to get slapped playfully by Sarah
“ No you didn’t and is he really?” She asks while I laugh
“ Yes I did and yes. Let’s put it this way you and I will be walking bow legged for a week.” I say see her mouth open
“ Holy shit I am going to have to train my ass with butt plugs to take something that big. But then again I want Matt to have the first time as he makes it fit him.” ” Sarah says as we all laugh
Kelsey and Jennifer strip exposing their bodies. Each come over Kelsey comes the side I am on with Jennifer going to Sarah. That moment we shared a kiss with our other lovers. The rest of the morning and afternoon was filled with love. Sarah had me pretend I was Matt while wearing a strapon making love to her. There were tears and a bonding between us. That day we consemated our new love for only one man that shared our hearts. That man was my son…my loving Mattybear.
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