I couldn’t remember another time she’d said that. Part of me wondered what could be that bad, but another part of me looked forward to the chance to do something more interesting than reforming another crack whore. There were only so many seriously fucked-up head cases out there, after all.
“Shower first? I’d hate for people to think you kept me around just for the sex.” I nuzzled her tousled hair and squeezed her breast suggestively.
Alex laughed, as I’d hoped, and rolled off of me. “You’re pretty good, for an old man. Do you think you can catch me?”
I laughed too as I chased her fetching silk-clad ass into the bathroom.
I was still admiring it, now clad in seasonably-appropriate wool slacks and obligatory white monogrammed lab coat, as we made the short walk from Alex’s reserved spot into the Center. We nodded politely to the guard and the few other staffers we saw, all of whom were appropriately awed to be in presence of Alexandra the Great. I’d never told her about the nickname, but that didn’t mean she hadn’t learned it.
We ended up in the secure ward, which wasn’t a total surprise, but ruled out a few things. Alex checked us in at the control desk, and I ambled over to room 1. It had an attached viewing area, and I knew we’d need it for this case. I looked through the glass cutout in the door.
The occupant was a looker. She sat on the bed, naked, rocking back and forth, and stared at the wall in front of her. She had preposterously large breasts, capped by wide areolae and erect nipples, a wasp waist, and shoulder-length dirty blonde hair that might have looked attractive if it had been brushed. Jarringly, her face was made up like one of Danny’s girls. I guessed her to be in her late twenties, more or less.
“Where did you find her?” I asked Alex, who was standing beside me.
“No cheating,” she said, without a trace of humor in her voice. “Let’s visit, first.” She unlocked the door and we entered the room.
The girl tumbled onto her knees on the floor with an agility that surprised me. She faced us with her breasts cupped in her hands and her face aimed at our feet.
“Good afternoon,” Alex said in her most gentle voice, “do you remember me? This is Dr. Parker.”
“Call me Lloyd,” I told her.
“Let me serve you, Lloyd,” she responded, proffering her breasts. Her voice was remarkably cultured.
She was a puzzle. “Um, can you stand up and tell me your name?” I asked, since Alex was remaining silent.
The girl rose gracefully until she was balanced on the balls of her feet. “My name is Torrid Passion, Lloyd.”
Even Danny didn’t have that perverse a sense of humor. “Can you just stand flat-footed, Torrid? I don’t want you to fall and hurt yourself.”
She looked nervous and gingerly lowered her heels, but the strain was apparent and she swayed more than she had before.
“That’s a good girl, Tori,” Alex cut in, “you can sit like a lady now.”
The girl — Torrid, Tori, whatever — looked at me first, then sat on the bed, knees together and aimed slightly to one side. She was the very picture of a prim young woman, except her chest was still thrust out and she seemed totally heedless of her nudity.
I looked past her bare skin to the tangle of her mind. It was twisted, not unlike a bonsai tree, in ways I’d never seen or even imagined.
Alex asked, “Have you ever heard of a Janet Mueller?”
“No,” Tori answered flatly.
“Thank you for your time, Tori,” Alex smiled warmly, but it didn’t make much impact.
“It was my pleasure to serve you, Lloyd,” Tori told me as we made our escape.
“Jesus Fucking Christ, Alex,” I burst out once the door was closed behind us, “where did you find that girl?”
She dragged me into the observation room, where we couldn’t be overheard. “Just tell me first,” Alex begged, “did someone — like you — do that?”
I hugged her close, suddenly understanding the source of her tension and unease. “No, love, I don’t think there’s an evil mind controller out there; her mind doesn’t look like that. Just some incredibly sick and twisted bastard with too much time on his hands. Did they get him?”
Alex relaxed in my arms and laughed humorlessly. “I doubt it. They picked her up in an INS raid following a tip about illegal domestic servants; can you believe it? It sounds like he bought her from someone else.”
“How long?” I wondered, opening the blinds so I could gaze through the one-way glass. Tori was sitting curled up on the bed, rocking, again.
“She went missing in her freshman year of college, back in ’94,” Alex reported. “Janet Mueller is her real name, but she only responds to ‘Torrid Passion’ or ‘Tori’. They identified her from dental records.” She pulled a photo from the folder in her hand and passed it to me.
I could see the physical resemblance, but the younger girl smiling from the picture didn’t look like the life-size Barbie doll rocking on the bed.
“It’s worse than you can see,” Alex stated in a flat tone, and I realized she was as angry as I’d ever seen her. “She stands the way she does because her tendons have been shortened to the point her heels can’t reach the floor. The makeup on her face is permanent, tattooed on.” She let out a shuddering breath. “Obviously her breasts have been enlarged, although she doesn’t have implants. And she was lactating up until last week, although her tubes are tied and Dr. Fisher estimates the surgery was performed at least several years ago.”
“Inside — well, you probably know better than I. She won’t wear clothes, ignores other women if there’s a man in the room, and is ready ‘to serve’ — by name — every male orderly she’s seen.” Alex’s voice had risen to an angry snarl.
“Damnit, nobody deserves this! Janet has parents and a brother; we can’t show them this! Please tell me you can fix her, Lloyd. Let us give them back a woman, not a toy.”
“Of course we will,” I assured her. It would be the most complicated thing I’d ever tried, but we — to be honest, I — was the reason the Sullivan Center was developing a grass-roots reputation for delivering with cases other places wouldn’t even try. “Just give me a few minutes to study her, and calm yourself down. I don’t promise miracles, but we’ll do right by her. Trust me on this, Alex.”
“I always have,” she smiled, already looking less stressed. “Take your time, and I’ll see if the ward nurses have anything new to add.”
I reversed a chair and sat down, propping my arms on the back and staring at Janet. I let my eyes go out of focus and looked with my mind’s eye, studying again the strands of her consciousness bent awry. The damage to her psyche was obvious, but the means of repairing it were less evident.
Parts of the crystalline lattice were faded nearly to oblivion from disuse, fenced off by tangled knots of presumably learned behaviors. I was always at my best reinforcing existing urges, so the trick would be to bypass the tangles. More than forty years of effort had yet to establish any correlation between what I saw and actual behavioral or intellectual centers, so I couldn’t know in advance what was important and what could be left for later or ignored.
Alex had thoughtfully left Janet’s file, and I thumbed through it. The new stuff didn’t interest me, and the background data was scanty. Just another California girl, thinking about maybe going into law, a few friends at school, a maybe-boyfriend. Living a normal life, a bad week, and then gone without a trace — until now. She’d probably spent more of her adult life as Tori than Janet. What could I hang my hat on?
It had to be her name. The unknown perpetrator obviously had gone out of his way to eliminate it, because it was too bound up with her identity and who she was, but he didn’t have my abilities and could only go at it second-hand. If we could get at her name, we’d have broken the back of the master knot and the rest would follow. Worst case, I’d just imprint it — something I was getting better at — and rely on her own subconscious to make the connection.
I opened my eyes and stretched, aware of the familiar glow at my back.
“Ready?” Alex asked.
“Yeah,” I answered. “Keep asking about her name. Janet Mueller. The rest is too vague to work with for now, I think. We can do a second session later if we need it. It’ll be tricky.”
“I thought so. Here, I brought you some aspirin and a cup of water.”
I gulped them down and stood up. “What did I do to deserve you?” I asked Alex rhetorically, kissing her on the forehead.
She pulled my head down for a quick, but proper, kiss. “The same things you always do. Be careful, Lloyd, please?” We exchanged warm smiles before she left the room.
I turned around and sat down again. This time I was able to watch without distractions as the door opened and Janet tumbled to her knees on the floor again. She seemed to relax slightly when she saw Alex was alone.
“Hi, Janet, it’s Alexandra again. I thought we could sit together on the bed and have a girl talk.”
The girl remained motionless on the floor, staring mulishly at my wife’s feet.
I closed my eyes and focused my attention outward. “Janet Mueller,” I whispered quietly, feeling the way my mouth moved and the sound of the individual syllables in my ears. I fixated on the picture of the younger girl, the feel and sound of the name that went with her, and pressed it all at her. Nothing happened, yet, but I wasn’t expecting a quick fix — not after nearly nine years. I kept up a steady pressure, regulated my breath, and kept watching for signs of movement amidst the tangle of her mind.
“Janet Mueller. It’s a pretty name, don’t you think?” Alex asked, keeping up a light banter. “Did you have friends? What did they call you? Janet, or maybe just Jan?”
“I do not have friends. My name is Torrid Passion. Master called me Tori when he was pleased, but I have not served him for many days. He will punish me.” There was a pause. “He will punish you too, for wearing clothes like a man. You should undress.” There was another pause, and my mental antennae quivered. “I could help you hide them; you have been kind and I would not like to see you beaten.”
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