Grief, Lust, and Consequences Ch. 02

This is the follow-up and conclusion to the Grief, Lust, & Consequences story. If you haven’t yet, please read the first chapter as this one picks up directly where the first left off with no additional context. This story also features themes of consensual non-consent in the form of roleplay between characters as well as a reference to pee-play. So, if that’s a deal-breaker for you, you needn’t read on.

As I mentioned previously, this story proved to be very difficult for me to write, and I’m relieved that this idea is no longer begging to be let out from inside my mind. I certainly hope you enjoy the conclusion as much as I did writing it!

Cheers!

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Katy lay there against her brother for many tense moments and continued to sob with abandon into his shoulder. Her unprocessed grief, her loneliness over the last six weeks without him, her anxiety over being pregnant, and her elation at finally being in his arms again all swirled into an uncontrollable emotional outpouring. Her body wretched and her tears flowed freely while she leaned hard into him. All her strength seemed to be drained from her body and poured out through her eyes in the form of tears.

Jeff was momentarily silent, and Katy was petrified with fear over his reaction. He had come back to her only to find that she was carrying his baby. It seemed to Katy that fate had conspired to assure that their reunion would be complicated at best, or abruptly halted at worst. Her heartbeat felt like a drum that drowned out all other sounds and threatened to break through her chest. Those moments of his silence felt like an eternity. But, Katy then felt his arms wrapping around her tightly, squeezing her and keeping her upright. Exhausted and drained, she melted into his embrace and continued sobbing, soaking his shirt with her tears and holding onto him for dear life. Her brother let her get it all out and stroked up and down her back in an effort to comfort her. The roiling uncertainty that had plagued her all day slowly began to melt away into the warmth of her brother’s embrace and Katy gradually allowed it to reach into her spirit and comfort her.

“Are you okay?” he whispered softly while still clutching her to him.

She nearly laughed through her tears at that question. “Of course I’m not okay! I lost my father, fell in love with my brother and am carrying his fucking incest baby as we speak!”

They both couldn’t help but stop and give a laugh at that ludicrous statement. Of course, ludicrous or not, that was the most accurate description of the situation in which Katy now found herself.

“I suppose you have a point there,” Jeff joked as Katy’s sobs began to settle.

He took a breath before continuing. “Forgive the stupid question. And Katy, please forgive me for being stupid in general. When you started talking about us being together, it scared the wits out of me.” He slipped his hands down her back and around her ribs and propped her up so they were eye to eye. “All I could hear in my head was all the times dad had said, ‘One day this family will be yours to take care of, so look after your sister.’ I thought that I had buggered it all up by starting physically with you and felt so guilty… Like I promised something that I could never live up to and let you down.”

Between sniffles, Katy tried to interject. “I know, I was so scared that you felt that way… I didn’t want to lose you and then I was sure that I did…”

He interrupted her statement and placed a soft, long kiss on her lips. Katy could taste the salt of her tears on his kiss but also felt the relief of being kissed by him after what felt like an eternity. Part of her consciousness couldn’t believe what was happening was real. She half expected to wake up from a dream and be without him still. She broke the kiss and looked into his eyes. They were glassy with emotion, focussed on her, and overflowing with affection. This had to be real… She teared up again and felt her lower lip start to quiver, but overcame the tremor and kissed him back and poured all her angst, fear, love, and relief into him through her lips. After a few moments of kissing she quickly realised that she couldn’t breathe through her nostrils from all the sobbing, and threw her arms back around his neck and rested her head on his shoulder.

Katy had finally gotten her desperate breaths under control and whispered in a strained voice into her brother’s shoulder, “Fuck… I’ve missed you so much!”

Jeff cinched his arms around her again and responded, “I’ve missed you too. I don’t want to have to miss you again, I’m here for anything and everything. As long as you want me here.”

Katy mustered the composure to sit upright on her own and wipe her eyes clear. “What about… her?’

“I’m not sure how or exactly how messy it’s going to get, but I don’t care anymore. Nothing feels right without you. I’ll be yours… I want to be yours.”

To call the day that Katy was having tumultuous would have been a gross understatement. She was still raw with conflicting emotions over what was unfolding before her eyes, but she still managed to smile at her brother upon hearing those words.

“I like the sound of that,” she said softly. “…You being mine.”

Jeff smiled back at her, still crouched on the floor in front of her.

“Let’s go sit down somewhere comfortable, yeah?” He stood and extended his hand to her and the pair got up and walked over toward the sofa and sat down.

For a good long while, Katy just lay on her side with her head against her brother’s chest. She took no small measure of comfort in having him with her of his own volition. She wrapped her arm around his torso as if she was afraid he would disappear if she let him go. Jeff responded by stroking up and down her back and running his fingers through her hair. The pair cuddled and enjoyed the silence and each other’s touch before Jeff reached and picked up the remote control.

“Friends?” he chirped, while pointing the remote at the television.

“Actually, I’ve moved on to Gilmore Girls,” Katy responded with a grin.

“Well Gilmore Girls it is then!” Jeff put the show on and the two melted away an hour of the afternoon.

The show picked up where Katy had left off and she started to relax and let her nerves quiet down from their ordeal. She loosened her frightfully tight grip around her brother and rested her hand against his chest. She smiled, feeling his heart beating into her hand. Without looking up she cracked her own oddly-timed joke to her brother.

“So do you really think we’re destined to be hermits out in the middle of nowhere?”

Jeff chuckled at Katy throwing his words back at him. “I should certainly hope not!” He slipped his arm around Katy before he went on. “I don’t think we need to have it all figured out today, but I’m sure we’ll think of something.”

Katy was becoming more relaxed as the time went on. But she had a nagging thought that she wanted to get out. Even at this moment she hesitated, knowing how the last time she spoke her mind, it had somewhat backfired.

“Jeff?” she started and then a long pause. “What if I decide I want to keep it?” Her tone was soft and unassuming, but still serious.

She looked up at him from where her head was perched on his shoulder to find him looking back at her.

“Of course whatever you want to do. It’s your choice and I’ll be here no matter what you decide.”

His answer was convincing and unwavering, but she could tell there was more. He had always been one to reign in his outward emotions, but Katy was perplexed that her question didn’t spark some discernible amount of panic in her brother.

She timidly responded, “You’re being awfully calm about this whole thing. Like, too calm.”

His cheeks started to blush as he responded, “Well, it seems that I’ve got a confession to make.”

Katy raised her eyebrows at his statement and turned her head up to look at him as he continued.

He took a breath before going on. “Being completely honest, I’ve wanted a family… much more so than she did… and let’s just say I’ve fantacised about the two of us in a situation a bit similar to this,” he drew a breath while her eyes remained fixed on him. “Though, of course a bit less dramatic.”

Katy sat straight up and looked at him in a way that showed both her interest and shock.

“Oh, fuck… you have?”

He sheepishly chuckled back at her. “Um… yes.”

He paused as if he was attempting to gauge her reaction before continuing, but Katy widened her hazel eyes silently begging for him to explain before breaking the silence.

“Go on… you can’t just leave it at that!” she said with equal parts surprise and curiosity.

“So that all started because the counselor suggested journaling about what I was thinking and wrestling over after dad… It actually helped a bit. And then, when my body started craving sex all the time, I started with the idea of writing dirty stories about the things I fancied… get it out of my system, you know? I wasn’t really allowed to explore very much of anything with… well… her” He paused again, Katy still looking at him intently. “I never thought I would tell you this, but the stories are basically about us… and in one of them you get pregnant.”

Katy took in this information with a mixture of surprise, shock, and a twinge of arousal. Her mind began to work to fill in the blanks of the starting of their taboo affair and this revelation from her brother.

“Oh my god! So at the cabin wasn’t the first time you thought about being with me?”

Jeff blushed deeply and partially covered his face before summoning the composure to reply. “No, not hardly. As a matter of fact, the way you were acting on the last evening I thought you had somehow snooped my phone and were teasing me trying to figure out how messed up I really was!”

Katy was surprised, but at the same time it all made sense. She had a growing curiosity at just how her brother featured her in the secret, depraved parts of his imagination before they even began to explore with each other. The thought that his taboo daydreams were all written down as some sort of record of how she was desired by her big brother sent a warm sensation through her body that she hadn’t felt in the time they had been apart. She let it all sink in briefly before pressing him with a question.