The days and weeks after the 4th were the normal. While Nick and Adam were at work I worked out in the garage at Adam’s on the punching bag or drove around just to think of the coming school year. I had to have my own space as my thoughts would go back to the night of prom. The hurt still filled my heart as I felt so betrayed by the ones that were never supposed to hurt me. They each stopped showing the love they had for me years ago. Now the only ones that truly loved me were those that I was not born into. I guess it just proves that love can come from others that truly care, and right now 4 people loved me as their son as two loved me as a brother.
It was the first weekend of August that I got my revenge on Adam and Nick. I was in the kitchen making brownies, but not ordinary everyday brownies. These had a extra ingredient that would be the revenge part or my own prank on them. Momma Chelsea came in the kitchen around 3 p.m. as I was taking the brownie’s out of the oven.
“ When did you start baking?” She asked as I turned to smile at her
“ Just today with help from the internet.” I answered as she grinned
“ Can I have one baby boy?” She asked as I shook my head
“ No as these are special and only for Adam and Nick.” I answer as she shows a look of concern
“ Um why only them honey?” She asks as I chuckle
“ Remember my birthday?” I ask as to giving her a hint
She looks at me with wide eyes then lets out a giggle.
“ This should be interesting.” Chelsea says as I nod hearing the front door open then shut
Coming into the kitchen was Adam and Nick along with Tim. I had just cut the brownies in squares and put them on a plate with Chelsea’s help. We are sitting down in the kitchen as I watch Adam and Nick grab two or three and start eating them making their way out of the kitchen. After Tim gives Chelsea a kiss on top of her head and grabs a beer he snags up two brownies also walking out before my mind could react he is starting to eat one.
I give Chelsea a look of concern as she looks at me as saying ‘ Crap’. We make our way into the living room to see them all three smiling before telling us the brownies were great. Chelsea and I sit on the couch just to wait and see the aftermath. It’s not long that Nick and Adam get up before running up the stairs. Tim looks at them then at us with a look of concern before he stands up and runs just a few minutes after my brothers. Chelsea and I turn to look at each other before we bust out laughing.
“ What did you put in those brownies?” She asks as I pull out a wrapper out of my back pocket to hand it to her as she continues “ Oh god laxatives Matt damn they are not going to be happy.”
“ Well maybe not, but this should make them know not to mess with me.” I say laughing as she joins me
It’s not long that we look up to see Nick and Adam get to the top of the stairs to only turn and run back to the bathrooms. Tim comes to the top of the stairs to only look down at us before he turns to run to the bathroom. It was good that they had 3 and a half bathrooms in the house. I couldn’t help but laugh, but also felt bad for papa Tim. It was about two hours later that they all three finally sat in the chairs as Nick sat on my left since Chelsea sat on my right.
“ You ok Tim darling?” Chelsea asks as he slowly nods
“ Yes darlin except my asshole burns. What the fuck was in those brownies?” He states asking as she slowly lifts her hand up that held the wrapper
All their eyes went wide before Tim started laughing.
“ Well I guess that shows me to ask before I grab something that I shouldn’t eat.” Tim says as the guys look at me
“ You put laxatives in those brownies bro?” Nick asks as I give him a nod
“ Shit that was evil bro.” Adam says as Nick agrees
“ Hey did it teach you not to put whip cream in my hand then make me slap my face?” I ask as their eyes go wide
“ Ok that was wrong of us, but damn man my stomach is empty and my ass hurts.” Adam says as I chuckle
“ Sorry guys I truly am, but you have to admit it was funny seeing you get to the top of the stairs then have to run back to the toilet.” I say as they look at me before Nick puts me in a head lock and rubs my head
“ Now who is laughing smart ass.” He says as I laugh to only hear the others laugh
That night Chelsea makes a big meal knowing the men in her life would be hungry. I just smile seeing they can take a prank and still be the family that I can feel love from.
School started up like every year in the middle of August. The morning of the first day I caught up with Holly, but when I tried to talk to her she walked away. I yelled for her to stop, but she never did. I felt sad because I was hoping that she would be the one to go out with me. The rest of the day went like any other first day. At lunch I saw Holly sitting with her friends who one pointed to Holly that I was looking at her. At that moment I looked real closely to see a bruise on her face. My eyes went wide as she handed one of her friends a note. The young woman stood up to only walk over to hand the note to me. Nick and Adam looked at her to see a sad look before she returned to where Holly sat. I looked at the paper in my hand hearing Adam ask me what does it say. I opened it to see words I wish I never had to see.
“ Dear Matt,
I am sorry for having to do this, but I can’t see you honey. I care about you so much, but due to personal reasons I cannot be with you darling. Always remember I will always cherish those dances and our kiss
Sincerely, Holly”
I handed the note to Adam to see Holly gone as was her friends. I felt sad at that moment wondering what was actually going on. I left the cafeteria to just get away from everyone to be followed by Nick and Adam.
When I went home after the first day of school I was made to mow the lawn, clean the house in which was a mess. I guess they were to tired from fucking to do any house work. Once I had everything done I was patted on my head by my mother as she said ‘ Good boy now go to your room while us adults have some fun time’. I was pissed at her words as I was 18 now and a young adult. So before going to my room I pulled one of my smokes out and lit it up taking a puff. Everyone’s eyes went wide as Sarah spoke up.
“ Matt put that out. When did you start smoking anyway?” She asked as I kept taking a puff off my cigarette
“ Over summer to help with my anger. It helps to keep me calm since nothing else will, and since I don’t have a girlfriend to fuck I find it much more relaxing. And besides why do you care?” I exclaimed as her eyes showed hurt
“ Put that out Matt and go to your room.” My mother said as I smirked before flicking it toward her
It slightly hits her before hitting the floor. I get another cigarette to only light it. I take a poof before letting the smoke fill the room then take another drag while walking to them and blowing it in their faces as they choke on the smoke. I turn making my way up the stairs flipping them all off. Before I get up the stairs I stop to only let my ass speak. I hear a few gasps as I turn to look at my father.
“ Hey bitch boy come clean my ass.” I say pausing seeing his eyes go wide before I continue “ Oh no ok my bad you looked like you needed some dessert…oh wait I forget I am not part of this family.”
I turn to only continue making my way to my room.
Days after that was fun as I lit up for the fun of it. I made a promise to momma Susan and Chelsea that I would tough things out, but it was getting hard to do since my family kept degrading me as in calling me names, and bad mouthing me. I stayed in my room when they all did their ‘ Family Fun’ turning my stereo up to drown their moans out. I had my window open so the smoke would go out. I was sitting on the edge of my bed listening to my music when I looked over at the night stand to see the family picture.
I reached to pick it up to look at it. I felt tears come to me remembering my youth. I looked over at the night stand again to see a pretty good size shard of glass. I picked up the piece of glass to only use it on the picture. I slashed at the picture of me. I made it not noticeable to anyone that would look upon it. I placed the frame on the night stand the put the shard of glass beside it. I let out a sigh as I reached under my bed to get my journal out. I opened it up and grabbed the pen that was inside.
I started writing my thoughts that ran so much through my mind like a movie playing on the scene that was my brain. I have noticed I had tendencies of thinking of death and how I would end my life. I wrote all of it down and the reasons which was my family. I wrote about the mother that once loved me had, but turned away from me as did my sisters and my aunt. I called them whores in which they were being passed between my father, Wayne, and Daryl. I ended the thoughts that I wrote with only one phrase ‘ If I had one wish it was to never be born into this family’.
I replaced the pen closing the journal. I put the journal back under my bed only to pull the blade that I had laid by it. I looked at it running it up and down my arm slowly feeling the sharpness of it. I placed the blade to my skin letting it dig into the top of my arm. I didn’t let it phase me as I was only trying to mask the pain. I did a few more cuts to my left arm as the blood dripped to the floor to only stain the carpet. I put the blade back under my bed. I went to my closet to find my own first aid kit. I doctored my arm after returning to my bed. That night my dreams were peaceful as it was just me in a field with trees all around.
Football season started as did the Friday night games. Our coach made sure I was quicker and faster by helping me in some after school training and on Saturdays. He wanted that championship bad this year. He ran me up and down the field. Each time I put my anger into my runs. Once he was happy I smiled telling him I would do my best.
My classes were nice as Adam and Nick were in all of them. We focused on what the teachers were telling the class. Between classes though Wayne and Daryl would taunt me, but this year it was more of them teasing as telling me ‘ Your mom has the juiciest pussy’ or ‘ Your Aunt Sarah can truly suck a cock so good’. I would just shake my head as to ignore them going to my next class. But in all honesty their taunts were adding to my anger. I put that anger though into the football games. As it was a good thing as we won everyone we played.
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