Gathering the comforter in her arms, she headed for the stairs. On her way down she spied Jake, in his lazy clothes which consisted of gym shorts and a faded T-shirt.
“Morning.” he said with a genuine smile.
“Hi sweetie.” Amanda was still red in the face and had her hair in a bit of a mess.
“Hey, I wanted to talk about last night, if that’s okay…” He said, trying his best not to give a hint of how he felt.
“Me too, actually.” She put the comforters into a hamper. She joined Jake at the kitchen table.
Jake set his phone down and tried to gather his thoughts quick enough to make the pause not awkward. There was so much bubbling at the surface. Tell her you love her. Tell her you love her more than a mother. Tell her you need her. None of these made their way out, however.
“I really enjoyed it. You’re really good at that.” He chuckled.
“Think so?”
“Definitely. And look, it doesn’t have to be awkward between us. We accepted what we did. I don’t feel awkward, do you?” He hoped for the best.
“Oh god yes. So awkward.”
His heart sank.
“That’s not something families just do. But I don’t regret how good it made us feel.”
He soared for a moment, a smile encroaching his face. He wanted to throw out everything they had agreed on the previous night. He
“Maybe you could show me how to eat pussy?” he asked, his brain forgetting everything they agreed to uphold.
“Jake!” She snapped, surprised by his language.
“Sorry, I mean eat you out! Like, go down on you or whatever. I’ve never had to process how I’d say something like that to you.” He said, now bringing the conversation fully back to awkward.
“Jake, why don’t you do any of this with Karen? You guys are so cute together. Have you slept together yet?”
“No mom, we haven’t done more than kiss, I swear.”
“There’s no way! A cute girl like her? How are you able to not pounce her! Jake, I’m a little surprised.”
“It’s her parents, they don’t let me stay over. And I’m sure they won’t let her stay over here overnight.”
“Well, you don’t need to do an overnight. Just go and get a hotel together! You’re both 18 now.”
“Yeah.. Maybe.”
“Focus on her darling. That’s probably what is best.”
She put a hand on the side of his face in the motherly way she always did, but their acts the night before had changed the context for any skin to skin contact they would have forever. All she could think about was how his morning stubble was rough against her soft hands. The hand could also feel that he was warming up. She thought at that moment that she could kiss him, deeply. She wanted to, deeply. The thoughts that Jake couldn’t have, the ones of responsibility, consequences, the ones meant for parents, entered her mind again and she pulled her hand away from his face. Before she could fully though he gently grabbed it and kept it near for a second. Time hung in the air for a brief moment. He began to caress the arm. She had to shut it down quickly. She pulled the arm away assertively. Jake didn’t resist, and gave in, letting her hand escape him. After a beat Jake spoke.
“Maybe I’ll go hang out with her today.” He said, looking at the floor.
“Yes. You two should do something. Go see a movie. Go for a walk. Just be in her presence. That might do you some good.”
She was giving him the half smile look of sympathy that a mother gives her child when they’re in pain, but knows that the pain is for the best. She gave him a kiss on the forehead and left Jake at the kitchen table.
Jake’s car sat idling outside Karen’s house, a 15 minute drive from his own. She had said she’d be out in just a moment, but it had been about 10 moments since she had said that. Jake passed the time on YouTube watching something or other that wasn’t holding his attention very well. He stopped the video of a man woodworking, or cooking a steak, it all glossed over him, and went to the file he kept those initial candids he had managed to take a while ago. There was his mom’s pussy again, and he ached. He could feel himself stiffen and even moved to adjust his pants when a knock came from his window. Karen stood there smiling and Jake quickly exited the image and locked his phone. He unlocked the car and Karen got in excitedly. She greeted him with an immediate kiss.
“Hey now.” Jake said, slightly taken aback by the immediate affection “To what do I owe that?”
“This is the first time we have hung out since school let out you jerk!” She joked.
A pang of guilt hit Jake hard, it had been about a week and even though he was supposed to see her yesterday he put it off to cheat on her essentially.
“Sorry about that. Was in a funk.” He returned the kiss. She smiled so big and Jake felt a familiar flutter that he had almost nearly buried completely. He loved his gal.
Karen was a short girl with fair skin and shoulder length frizzy brown hair. In school, she wasn’t considered popular, nor unpopular. She hung around with theater kids, who like her, weren’t considered cool, but not uncool either. However, Jake was taken immediately when he first saw her. He loved her energy. She talked a lot and moved from topic to topic so quickly that it made him easier to stay an introvert. They had met her during a play they both were theater techs on. Jake didn’t care so much for acting, but he liked being behind the scenes.
Together they wore all black and spent months of rehearsal bonding behind the curtains, in the little dark spaces between each scene and the entrance and exit of the actors on the stage. It was their own island away from things. It was on a walkway high above the stage that they shared their first kiss. Karen had turned 18 a month before Jake did, and before they both graduated. During school they had each talked a big game about the Summer they were going to have together and sadly Jake had almost forgotten in the wake of his resolve to sleep with his own mother instead.
The car sped to the movies, which they made just as it started. Karen lifted the armrest so she could lean into Jake. The two cuddled and watched whatever that Summer’s Marvel movie was, which did completely pass right through Jake. He was there but his mind was elsewhere. The movie ended and Jake had to feign excitement through the after credits tease. The two now walked through the outdoor mall, hand in hand. They stopped at the bookstore, then a Sephora, and stopped into an independent coffee roaster and ordered iced coffees. It was a pleasant conversation they had. It was almost as if Karen was putting on a display to remind Jake of everything he had liked about her, but she wasn’t even trying to. Jake really appreciated how effortlessly she was herself. And suddenly for the first time in a long time, he felt content. He felt that perhaps this is exactly what he needed. She was what he needed. As he walked to the passenger side of the car to open the door for her he felt this feeling swell.
“Hey you don’t have to open the door for me every time you kn-” Her words stopped as Jake had scooped her into his arms and kissed her firmly. She relaxed after the initial surprise and wrapped her arms around her neck.
“Hey…” she said quietly after a while.
“What’s up?”
“Go to that park by my house, yeah?”
“Uh, sure. Wanna go for a walk?”
“Just come on.” She said, kissing him on the cheek and letting herself into the car.
On the way to the park Karen was holding Jake’s hand and caressing the top of it. Her face was rosy and Jake could feel the blood rushing to his crotch. By now the sun was getting low, their date had taken the entirety of the afternoon. As Jake arrived at the park, he instinctively drove towards the front parking area. Before he could turn into the front entrance, Karen put a hand on his shoulder. Jake quickly turned to look questioningly at her.
“No, the other side…” She said softly. Her pale cheeks were rosy.
Jake swallowed and made his way to the other side of the park, the one that was more covered by tree cover and shade. It also was the least inhabited side of the park coincidentally. He pulled the car over to a corner of the parking lot. By now the sun was dipping and the sky was a dark blue. Jake turned to Karen who was giving him a look he hadn’t seen from her before, her eyes fluttered for a half second as she breathed a sharp intake of air that made her chest rise. Her chest was more than ample for her stature. 32DD for a girl of literally only 5 feet and 2 inches tall. Yes, her ample chest had played a part in Jake’s initial attraction. She gently grabbed Jake’s shirt and lightly tugged him towards her, Jake knew what to do.
He leaned in and they kissed, her lips immediately parting and darting her tongue longingly into Jake’s mouth where it met his own. Together they lightly pressed their tongues into each other’s. Her arms went around Jake’s neck as they kissed and his own hands made their way to her waist and pulled her closer. As he did he gently squeezed her which she responded to by letting out a quiet and subtle breathy moan. The sound of the moan drove even more blood through Jake and caused him to light up more. His hands moved up her abdomen to her breasts where he cupped them and gently massaged over the shirt.
Karen was a fairly innocent girl, and Jake had been her first boyfriend. She didn’t go to parties, she didn’t engage in any drinking or drugs. She was a mostly sheltered girl. He felt maybe he should slow down. Even though she was Jake’s first girlfriend (he didn’t count the ones from when he was still in middle school), he had fooled around once or twice with other girls in his classes throughout the years. While he wasn’t a player by any means he had the intuition and techniques for when it really mattered. Karen let out a stronger moan after his hands found their way to her breasts and for a second her mouth had stopped moving. Jake’s eyes opened and he pulled away for a moment to check in with her.
“Hey, sorry was that okay?” He asked.
“Oh of course, yes! Sorry, I was just caught off guard because that’s the first time you’ve ever… uhm.. Grabbed me. First time anyone has actually. Well, the first time someone meant it at least.” She chuckled.
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