“ Heath I was scared of rejection, and still am. I never could get the courage, and when I did you were always around Tiffany. I over heard her and Selena that day of graduation in the bathroom. I wanted to slap them both before I gave them a piece of my mind.” Jasmine tells me as I chuckle at the last part
“ Yeah well they are not worth the slap.” I say getting a nod in return
“ So they are the reason why you left?” She asks as I take a drink of my beer before answering
“ Yes, sorry I left it’s just I was so hurt and filled with anger that I had to. That is why I gave you that speech as you never hurt me in the short time we talked. I found you as a good person as well as a true friend.” I respond getting a nod
“ Heath all I wanted was to be close to you. All those times I left a letter in your locker I was so afraid you would tear them up or worse. I could never tell you of my true feelings.” She tells me with a tear slowly falling down her left cheek
“ Jasmine, I never tore them up I kept them.” I tell her filling her in
“ You…you did?” Jasmine asks being shocked as I nod
“ Yes as I felt love as I read them. It’s like my soul needed to have something not tainted or touched. When I caught um those close to me it crushed me, but every now and then I would get one of the letters and read them. I guess I hoped that who gave me those sweet letters would finally come into my life.” I tell her getting hopeful eyes
“ Aww Heath I can understand that, but why do I feel there is more to what your saying?” Jasmine says as I sigh nodding
“ Jasmine I am damaged beyond anything. Jack and Adam have been like my anchors to this life.” I tell her seeing concern
“ What do you mean Heath I don’t understand? And what is it about them, and what is this about being orphans?” She asks as I stand up to speak
“ Jasmine.” I say pausing before continuing “ Adam, Jack, and I don’t have anyone to really call family. If you will trust me I will tell you when it’s the right time ok.”
I watch as she comes over to me placing her arms around me. I think to step back, but her arms feel nice around me. I place mine around her placing my head on top of hers.
“ Heath I will not pry or push you into anything. Just being here like this means so much. I will be patient with you as I never want to hurt you any more then you are. Maybe I should of told you over a year ago of my love for you, but I was to scared.” She tells me as I feel my shirt getting wet from her tears
“ Jasmine I don’t know what to say?” I tell her stating more then asking
“ Just tell me I can be in your life. Tell me that one day we will have a chance to be in the others heart. Just tell me that there is hope for a future together. Heath Thompson I love you so very much. I will do what it takes to heal what hurt you have. I will never try and hurt you, and if I do we will talk it through instead of losing each other. You are all I want in life Heath please give me a chance to prove my love to you.” She tells me looking up in my eyes with tears
“ Jasmine you mean all that? I mean deeply as I don’t need anymore pain?” I ask getting a nod
“ Yes I do as I don’t want you to hurt anymore. I see it in your eyes that once were Bright blue, but now are the color of the ocean. Oh god Heath feel my heart beat for you. Look in my eyes as they have never lied to you, and never will.” Jasmine says as I do look in her eyes
“ So if Jack and Adam came through that door, and say offered to give you pleasure you wouldn’t join them?” I asked knowing it was a big risk
“ No I wouldn’t as I have vowed to only be with you. If I was to never be with you I was going to join a convent.” She tells me as my eyes went wide
“ Your not lying are you?’ I ask getting a shake of her head
“ No I’m not as I mean everything I say.” Jasmine says as we stand there looking in the others eyes except hers has tears
We stood there holding each other in a warm friendly embrace. Jasmine was beautiful in every way. I had a thought smiling as she looked at me confused.
“ Jasmine you want to hang out? I mean to get to know each other again?” I asked getting a smile in return
“ I would like that very much.” She answered as we broke the hug
She turned to get her beer as I took her hand after leading her out of my room. Making our way back to the living room we were met by Adam and Jack who were sitting on the couch with beers of their own. They each saw Jasmine and I holding hands. I saw Jack smile looking at my eyes.
“ So is every thing ok bro?” He asked as I turned to see Jasmine nod
“ Yeah man were going to take our time as she doesn’t want to rush me or add to the hurt I have.” I tell them answering seeing Adam nod as Jack looks sad
“ I suppose that is best man. I just hoped since you both knew each other well.” Jack says as I smile to him
“ I know Jacman and it may come, but don’t rush something that can be forever.” I tell him getting a grin
I went to the other chair we got at the beginning of college. Jasmine sat down on the floor between my legs. That evening was fun as Jasmine and i got more reacquainted. She also got to know Adam and Jack who by the end of dinner accepted her as a friend. She stayed having dinner with us. She helped Jack cook saying she wanted to cook for me. I smiled as Adam chuckled saying now I had 2 wives with Jack flipping him off from the kitchen. Between the two dinner was great. Around 9 that night I walked her to the dorm she was in. We didn’t kiss except my lips to her forehead.
After that day Jasmine came back in my life she never left. We hung out everyday at my dorm. Adam and Jack were also getting closer at being friends with Jasmine. Adam made it a point of being protective by telling Jasmine to never hurt me in which she promised she wouldn’t. The middle of October Jack announced we were having a party on Halloween. Jasmine and I looked at him as Adam did the same. I thought about it then looked at Jasmine asking if she would like to be my date. She smiled telling me yes with a sparkle in her eyes. Those next few weeks were fun between classes, my online business in which Jasmine watched me do, plus hanging out with my best friends, and Jasmine. We all went looking for costumes with Jasmine riding with me. That was a experience as Jasmine chose a belly dancer outfit as I thought of mine with a laugh. Adam chose The Crow, and Jack picked Zorro.
The day before the party I told Jack the party was being moved to the beach house since there was more room. He looked at me as Adam agreed. Jack smiled saying he would let those he asked to come the directions and change. Jasmine was excited as this was our first date. I was nervous to no end, but I had my brothers there to calm me down. That night before I slept off and on as I was excited myself.
Halloween came being on a Saturday. The guys, Jasmine, and I went early around 10 a.m. getting things fixed up. After getting everything in drinks, food, decorations. Jasmine went over to the mantle to look at the pictures by the urn.
“ Is this your grandmother Heath?” Jasmine asked me as Jack and Adam stopped what they were doing to look at me
“ Yes she is.” I answer walking over by Jasmine
“ She looks so beautiful I can’t wait to meet her.” She says before I let out a sigh before she continues “ Where is she away visiting family?”
“ Um no she died last year before Thanksgiving. That urn is holding her ashes.” I answer getting wide eyes
“ I am so sorry Heath I didn’t know please forgive my rudeness.” She tells me as I shake my head
“ No your totally ok Jasmine.” I say taking her hand before placing my arms around her
“ Jasmine, May gave Heath all that she had as a thank you for him coming into her life.” Adam says getting a nod from Jack
“ You might say she gave him a place to start family. She even took Adam and I in as Grandsons.” Jack says as Adam nods
“ Still I am sorry for bringing up memories.” Jasmine says with tears
“ It’s ok Jazzy I am ok now I have Adam, Jack, and now you in my life. You three help me stay grounded and calm. I promise to tell you more later ok, but now lets get this place fixed up.” I say as they all nodded
The day went by as Adam started getting his songs ready. I thought of one song I wanted played. I went to tell my bro about it. He smiled saying he would add it to his mix. As evening came we all got ready as Jack’s guest started to show up. Jasmine looked beautiful as well as sexy. I was nervous to seeing her like that. I was dressed up with a mixture of Sagot and Vega from Street Fighter. Jasmine smiled, but bit her bottom lip seeing my upper body. It was around 8 p.m. when the song that I wanted played came over the speakers. I looked over at Jasmine who caught my eyes smiling. I made my way to her offering my hand. She took it after placing her drink on the coffee table next to the wall. A few other couples took to the floor to dance. I led Jasmine over to a place by the back double doors. The moon was high in the background. As the song played Jasmine placed her arms around me as I placed mine around her. Listened to the lyrics that were flowing into my soul.
She took my arm,
I don’t know how it happened.
We took the floor and she said,
“Oh, don’t you dare look back
Just keep your eyes on me.”
I said, “You’re holding back,”
She said, “Shut up and dance with me!”
This woman is my destiny
She said, “Oh, oh, oh,
Shut up and dance with me.”
A backless dress and some beat up sneaks,
My discothèque, Juliet teenage dream.
I felt it in my chest as she looked at me.
I knew we were bound to be together,
Bound to be together
She took my arm,
I don’t know how it happened.
We took the floor and she said,
“Oh, don’t you dare look back
Just keep your eyes on me.”
I said, “You’re holding back,”
She said, “Shut up and dance with me!”
This woman is my destiny
She said, “Oh, oh, oh,
Shut up and dance with me.”
Oh, come on girl!
Deep in her eyes,
I think I see the future.
I realize this is my last chance
As those words filled my mind I looked to see Jasmine looking up at me with tears. I could see her love showing as her heart beat against my body. The next thing that happened I think surprised us both. I leaned down placing my lips against hers. The kiss was unexpected, but felt so right at that moment. Jasmine moved her hands up behind my neck returning the kiss that I placed. I felt my heart race in this moment in time as our mouths opened as that moment I heard a voice speak to me ‘ She will never hurt you Heath as her heart is true’. The voice was of May telling me that the young woman in my arms was true to her words. I smiled a bit feeling Jasmine’s tongue play with mine. As the song ended all I could say to myself was ‘ Jasmine was my last chance and my future in this place and time’.
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