“Anyway,” he continued, “she chewed my ass up one side then the other and told me to man up. She said it was hard on her too but she did what she thought was best for both of us. Then she smiled and told me she was pregnant. I don’t think I’ve seen her looking more radiant. So I put on my big boy pants and not long after I met the girl of my dreams and couldn’t be happier.”
“Wow, I never knew the facts. I understand better the advice you gave me. Still I don’t know what to say to Ava,” I mumbled again.
“Say as little as possible, but follow through and go see Sandy. Ava is going to have to put her big girl panties on and so are you…boxers…not panties,” he chuckled. “This weekend, with your permission Lisa and I will talk to her.”
“Yeah of course you have permission, she thinks the world of Lisa and you both.”
He laughed, “Lisa has already adopted her as her sister, I’ve never seen her take to someone as she has Ava.”
“Thanks Richard, I’ll let you go. Talk later.”
AVA
After running off and locking myself in my room I bawled my eyes out. I really wanted Lee to be happy, and if Sandy was the one to make happy I hope it works out for him. It just hurt so damn bad thinking we might never have sex again. I accepted the fact we could never marry, but could I be around him and not crawl into bed with him?
Looking in the mirror I dried my eyes, and glanced over to my dresser. There sat my Gateway Arch and coffee mugs. I giggled thinking about the trip here from Deer Creek. So much has changed in a short period of time. Picking up the Tacky Jack’s coffee mug I thought about Nick and the wonderful time I had. Fuck why did everything have to be so complicated.
Flopping down on the bed I stared at the ceiling. “You’re not a slut Ava” I said out loud. “Lisa is right there is nothing wrong with enjoying sex.” Hearing me say it out loud made me giggle.
My phone rang and I thought it might be Lee. I couldn’t face him right now after making a fool of myself. I just let it ring. Finally it stopped then started again. Fuck it, I picked it up to turn it off and saw it was Lisa calling.
“You must be a mind reader,” I answered with a shaky voice.
“No,” she giggled, “but I think my sister needs me right now. I have a meeting in a few minutes but at noon I’m free. I’ll pick you up at 12:30.
“But,”……
“Don’t talk. See you at 12:30. Love you, bye.”
Shit did Lee call Lisa? I still couldn’t face Lee right now, and didn’t want to talk to him. I decided I would text him.
Ava: Did you call Lisa!?!
Lee: What? NO?
Ava: She called. Picking me up at noon.
Lee: We need to talk.
Ava: Maybe later. After I talk to Lisa.
Lee: Are you okay?????
Ava: Yeah. Sorry about earlier. Please leave me alone right now.
Lee: OK. Sure you’re okay?
Ava: Will be. Need some time.
Lee: Here when you’re ready to talk. Love you!!!! XOXO
Lee:Going for a run. Call me if you need me.
LEE
I should have known Richard would tell Lisa. Just didn’t expect her to call Ava now.
Maybe it was for the best. I still didn’t know what to say to Ava, and she wasn’t ready to talk to me. Maybe a run would clear my head.
I made sure I stayed out after my run until I was sure Lisa had picked Ava up. At one o’cock I returned home and took a shower. I didn’t realize how out of shape I had gotten and every muscle ached. It reminded me I needed to get back to regular exercising like I did before Ava arrived.
AVA
Lisa didn’t say where we were going, so I picked a modest light blue sundress that was sleeveless and had a button up top with white buttons, a white belt around the waist, then flared out and went down to just above my knees.
Getting dressed up helped my mood and standing there looking in the mirror with white open toed sandals with 2″ heels I brushed out my hair.
Whatever tongue lashing she planned, I had already kicked myself for losing it this morning. Obviously Richard and his sister didn’t love each other like I did Lee, if they parted ways so easily.
When she picked me up she was all smiles and friendly like nothing was wrong. I expected her to at least question why I acted out this morning after we had just talked yesterday. Not that I could totally blame her.
Finally I couldn’t take it any longer. “Just go ahead and tell me why you called this morning?” I mumbled while fidgeting with my white purse in my lap.
“The truth,” she smiled, “I heard Richard on the phone this morning talking to Lee, and figured you needed a friend, and to get out for a little while. So here I am.”
“Did they tell you what happened?” I asked her.
“Just that you got upset and was up in your room crying. It didn’t take a genius to figure out why,” she said as she reached over and grabbed my hand giving it a squeeze. “Don’t tell me anything right now. I want you to just relax and let’s have a nice lunch, then we’ll talk.” She smiled and gave my hand another squeeze.
I felt much better after lunch. I hadn’t realized how hungry I was, I had not eaten much of my breakfast. Plus Lisa kept the conversation flowing with funny stories, and I forgot all about this morning.
When we finished she paid for lunch and we walked outside, she linked arms with me and said this way. “I know a quiet place in the park on the corner, where we can talk.”
It was a nice little neighborhood park with a playground and several shady places to sit. Little boys and girls were playing on the swings, the jungle gym and 2 boys were teasing a little girl on the merry-go-round. I giggled when the boys started arguing and I heard one of them say ‘She my girlfriend’ and the other said ‘No she’s mine’.
The little girl got off the merry-go-round and walked up to them and shook her finger at both of them and said, ‘You’re my brothers and you can’t be my boyfriends. Now stop arguing and push this thing I want to go fast.’ Then she got back on the merry-go-round and the two boys grinned and rushed over and started pushing until the ride was spinning fast. They were all three giggling and laughing.
A woman turned and looked at us and smiled, she was obviously the mother. She had an expensive digital camera she was taking pictures with, she walked over with a big grin on her face. “Those three wear me out sometimes, do mine if I have a seat?” She laughed.
We were sitting on a long bench under a shade tree. Lisa smiled and told her to join us. Lisa made the introductions, the woman’s name was Amanda. Something was up but I couldn’t put my finger on it. Lisa and Amanda seem to know each other.
I was seated between them and Lisa made an excuse to walk across the street to get us all something cold to drink. I was now alone with Amanda. She used her camera and took a couple more pictures of her kids, then leaned back. “I was in your shoes one time in love with my brother. I thought the world was coming to an end when he met someone and told me he was getting married,” she said, in her sweet southern voice.
“I thought you and Lisa acted like you knew one another. I can’t believe she told you,” I mumbled, blushing embarrassed.
“Well Lisa is a good friend and she knows anything she tells me I’ll not tell anyone. She obviously thinks the world of you, she called me this morning and thought maybe I could help. Lisa tells me she trusts you and you wouldn’t tell anyone of our conversation today,” she smiled and squeezed my hand.
“Of course not, Lisa is like an older sister to me, I wouldn’t do anything to make her more upset with me,” my voice is a little shaky.
“Oh she is not upset with you, she just thought another viewpoint might help you.,” she grinned, “I understand your having a hard time worrying about what happens if your brother falls in love, where does that leave you. Right?”
“Yeah, sort of,” I mumbled, “and what if I fall in love with someone. It’s all just confusing.”
She giggled softly and squeezed my hand, “Tell me about it. Oh my God my brother and I had mind blowing sex, I was a virgin and and horny and knew he was experienced. I practically seduced him I was wanting to get rid of my V-card. All my girlfriends were telling me about how hot sex was and here I was 18 and pretending I knew what they were talking about.”
She paused for a minute, looking off in the distance with a smile on her face. Then cleared her throat, “Anyway I wouldn’t trade anything for the time my brother and I had, he taught me more about sex than young boys could, I even named my first son after him.”
“Your brother was older?” I asked her.
“Four years older. We still laugh about times we almost got caught by our parents, when we are alone. His family lives here and he and my husband are close. The skills I learned from my brother, I don’t think I have to worry about my husband straying,” she giggled. “If he did and I didn’t kill him my brother would.”
“You don’t miss…you know…” I muttered and she cut me off.
“Having sex with him? I wouldn’t say I mess it, my husband is damn good in the bedroom and we work making sure our sex life doesn’t suffer because we have 3 kids,” she laughed softly. “That can be a challenge sometimes.”
“Anyway,” she continued with a big smile, “I’m lucky I have three men in my life that love me and would do anything for me and I can depend on, my Dad, brother and my handsome husband.”
I felt better after hearing her story, it seemed she and Richard had been able to move forward from an incestuous relationship and were happy, plus on good terms with their sibling. Maybe things would work out for Lee and I.
“I appreciate your sharing that with me, it does help knowing others have gone through what I’m experiencing. It would just destroy me if I lost connection with my brother,” I gave her a little smile and hugged her.
“From what Lisa tells me about your brother I don’t think you have to worry about that. You just hang in there and I bet it all works out.”
Lisa walked up with 3 large drinks and said, “Sorry for taking so long, the owner of the store recognized me from one of our ads and wanted me to help him sell his home,” she laughed. “So I guess I can truthfully say I was working this afternoon,” she giggled.
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