I shake my head as I open the medicene cabinet to see what it contains. I grab all that I can see. Once I have all I can carry I make my way back into the living room. I place the bottles on the coffee table. After I have done that I go to grab a beer to help relax me. Looking in the fridge I grab two more just in case. Back in the living room I sit on the couch. As the music plays I open the bottles dumping them on the table. Glancing at the pills in front of my eyes. They are a mixture of pain pills, sleep aides, stay awake’s, asprin, the basic pills of a college kid. I take a drink of the beer in my hand just to get my mouth wet. I listen to the lyrics that flow as I start take the pills only to drown them with beer.
Here’s my chance
This is my chance
Tell my mother,
Tell my father
I’ve done the best I can
To make them realize
This is my life
I hope they understand
I’m not angry, I’m just saying…
Sometimes goodbye is a second chance
After taking all the pills there was I sat there drinking the last of the beer in my hand. I felt my heart starting to race. My mind started to spin as my eyes grew heavy. I listened to the song play again.
Please don’t cry one tear for me
I’m not afraid
Of what I have to say
This is my one and only voice
So listen close,
It’s only for today
My eyes closed in that moment as I saw darkness with the last thought of my mind. I heard voices run close together. My fathers, My mothers, Michelle, Travis, my god parents, and everyone one else talking asking where was I. All I could say was maybe dad and May would meet me on that sandy shore to watch the sunrise of a better day. As my last breath left me I felt brightness within me leave.
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