On a stormy sea of moving emotion
Tossed about, I’m like a ship on the ocean
I set a course for winds of fortune,
But I hear the voices say
Carry on my wayward son
There’ll be peace when you are done
Lay your weary head to rest
Don’t you cry no more no!
As those words play I cry with blurry eyes as the only person I see in the picture is Heath. His eyes still bright I feel my heart ache for his arms. I hold the picture close to my chest. My eyes look out towards the east along the snow. I only say the words that mean so much between a mother and son.
“ Heath my bright blue eyed boy please hear me. Please feel my love that has never left you. Please be safe for I so dearly love you.” I say those words with tears that never stop
Christmas ended with a great meal that Jack made. As for dessert well we had a happy Adam as I had gotten his favorite a chocolate chip cake. By the time we all went to bed he almost had it gone. Jack and I laughed calling him a pig in which Adam just shrugged with a happy grin. After that night we stayed at the Beach house until the day before college started back up. During the month of January I started a online business named HT LLC. The T standing for my last name. I figured why not as it would give me something to do. It was nice getting back into the field I wanted to be a business man. I started selling the same kind of thing I did years before, but on a better design. I sold in quantity as some didn’t on the east coast. I figured it would also help with my projects the professors may give me.
January was filled with Jack, Adam, and I being a family. We spent our weekends at the beach house which made it relaxing. Although on campus everyone was already talking about Spring Break. Jack even brought it up in which Adam just shook his head as did I. As January left February came in which brought Valentines day. I didn’t care much for the day from the past that still haunted my thoughts. Jack tried to get me to go with him and Adam to some party, but I told him no as I had work to do.
He just shrugged his shoulders saying it’s all good. I watched them leave telling them to have fun. That evening I spent it on my laptop watching products be sold, as the money went to my bank account. With what I had already, and plus what Grandma May had willed to me. I had enough money that if I wanted to retire, and live the simple life I could. But in the back of my head I wanted to have more so if one day I got with someone, and started a family we would be set with a relaxing way of life.
After a few hours of business I decided to turn in early around 9 p.m. Laying in bed I look up staring at the ceiling. My mind starts thinking if things were different if Tiffany and I would still be together. Then the scene that still haunts me shows up in my memories. I shake my head knowing we would never be as Tiffany would just sneak off to be with that bastard Chris. She could have him and Selena for all I care. As that saying says once a cheat always a cheat. I close my eyes to think of better things. Once I start dreaming I smile seeing the beach with me sitting alone watching the waves.
February left bringing March, and with it brought Spring Break. The first Friday of March around 4 p.m. Jack came in my room at college with a smile on his face.
“ Bro get packed we are going to Virginia Beach for the next week.” Jack tells me as I look up
“ I can’t man I have work to do.” I tell him getting a shake of his head
“ Bull shit man you can take sometime off to have fun.” Jack says as I see his eyes
I think of what he says looking back at my laptop. I give out a sigh then show a smile.
“ Ok bro just a few days is that alright?” I ask getting a nod
“ Yep so get packed as Adam is already packed as I am.” He tells me as my eyes grow wide
“ You already packed dang bro.” I tell him getting a smile
“ Yep so hurry up I’m driving.” He tells me as I shake my head watching him leave my room
After about a hour of getting packed, and grabbing my laptop. Jack, Adam, and I are on the way to our spring break destination. I am sitting in the passenger seat as Adam is in the back seat. Jack is driving down the coast to Virginia Beach. He booked us a room for about a week. I asked how he had the money. Jack answered by saying he gets money from his mother just to stay away. I turned to look at him with concern as Adam did.
“ What do you mean stay away?” I ask as Jack goes quiet for a moment
Adam and I just listen to the music waiting for our best friends response. He pulls over into a gas station parking on the side. Jack turns his car off then turns to look at us both.
“ Look the reason I act as I do is because my parents were hardly around. They say they love me, but growing up I never saw that love. My mother puts money on my card every month. I guess it’s her way of showing me she still cares.” He pauses looking out the windshield then looks back at us continuing “ I come from money, but want the simple way’s of life. I don’t like to show I have money, but if I am going to have it then I will spend it the right way. The last two month’s I have been thinking us three are like orphans. We have families, but they don’t show their heads. They left us, or left us alone. Heath, Adam you guys are my family as I see it.”
Jack says as I look into his eyes. I see hurt, pain, but love for Adam and I. I turn to look at Adam who nods to me before i return my eyes to Jack.
“ So you going to get this car back on the road, or are we walking?” I ask seeing Jack’s eyes light up
“ VIRGINIA BEACH HERE WE COME!” Jack yells as Adam and I laugh
After that Jack started the Party Machine in which he named up. He got back on the road making our way to the place he chose. That ride was full of us talking about what all to do this coming week. Adam stayed quiet the whole time I guess to think on our friends words. As I listened to the music I smiled knowing this week would be nice with the two guys that were my family.
Slow ride, take it easy
Slow ride, take it easy
Slow ride, take it easy
Slow ride, take it easy
I’m in the mood
The rhythm is right
Move to the music
We can roll all night
Oooh slow ride
Oooh
Slow ride, take it easy
Slow ride, take it easy
As that song plays I smile seeing the lights in the distance after a few hours of riding in my bro Jack’s car.
After the weekend of getting settled into Spring Break. Jack, Adam, and I sight see the different places for us to hang out. It’s Monday around 3 p.m. that we walk by a tattoo parlor. Jack stops making Adam and I do the same. I see him get a sparkle in his eyes.
“ Hey bro’s lets get the same tattoos.” Jack says looking at the both of us
“ What are you crazy bro?” Adam asks with a hint of puzzlement
“ No I’m not crazy as it would show we are family. What do you both say?” Jack as as I look from him to Adam
I stand there for a few seconds then smile at my friends.
“ Hell why not might be fun, but I get to chose the tattoo.” I say getting nods from them both
We walk in to be greeted by a young woman in a bikini. She has some nice tattoos across her stomach, arms, legs and neck.
“ May I help you three cutie’s?” She asks as I see Jack staring at her
Adam and I chuckle getting his attention.
“ Oh sorry for staring ma’am.” Jack says blushing as she giggles
“ It’s ok honey so what can I help you with.” She asks looking at us three
She stands 5‘8, 145 lbs, long blonde hair with blue eyes. I step up to the counter to speak.
“ Yes, my friends and I would like to get the same tattoo.” I exclaim as she looks at us three
“ You three aren’t you know?” She states asking me getting chuckles
“ Oh no we aren’t what you think. Look we want to get a tattoo like showing were family.” I exclaim as the young woman smiles nodding
“ So any idea of what you would like?” She asks getting my mind to think
“ May I ask your name beautiful?” Jack asks while I look around at the tattoo pictures
“ Marissa, and sorry I am already taken babe.” She answers as I see Jack go sad
“ Well guess that teaches you bro.” Adam says as I chuckle
“ It’s all good didn’t hurt to ask for the name of a beauty.” Jack says making Marissa blush
“ Uh thank you as my wife thinks so to.” She says catching Jack and Adam’s attention
“ So your a.” Jack tries to say as Adam covers his mouth with a hand
“ A lesbian yes I am sorry if I made you think different.” She says as I finally shake my head
“ It’s all ok Marissa my brother here just like’s to compliment a beautiful woman.” I say as Jack blushes
“ Aww that’s very nice so have you decided?” She asks getting a nod
“ Yeah a tribal shark black and red.” I say as I see her smile
“ Nice choice honey so all of you getting them today?” Marissa asks getting nods from us
“ Cool my wife will be happy to do your ink.” She says as I nod to thank her
She asks who is first look at the three of us. I answer by saying I am as Marissa has me follow. I am shown to a chair only to see the tattoo artist is a lady in her 30‘s, 5‘7, 120 lbs, long wavy brown hair with brown eyes. Her skin is tanned looking Latina. I find out her name in Juanita. Marissa tells her what I want to have. Juanita smiles telling me to wait here as she goes to draw it out.
It’s not long she comes back showing me her design. I look at the finished result smiling giving her a nod. She tells me just one more thing before leaving again. After a few minutes she comes back asking where I want the tattoo. I look at my upper body and decide on my left upper arm. She smiles as I watch her start getting ready. She begins with small talk until I hear my friends laugh from the other room. I smile knowing everything was going to be just fine.
After a few hours Jack, Adam, and I walked out after thanking Marissa and Juanita for the tattoo’s. They smiled telling us we were welcome. We each got the tattoo in the same place. Adam hid his wrist very good wearing a button up long sleeve shirt. I was the only one still to know of his scars. On the way back to our motel room we got dinner for the evening. By the time we arrived in our room it was 9 p.m. We talked about the next few days. I had to take my medication to keep my heart and nerves calm. We each had a problem sleeping that night with a pain from the fresh ink on our arms. That night I had a dream that I never had before. Like usual I was on the beach sitting in the normal spot. Watching the waves collide onto the sand I felt a hand on my right shoulder. I turned to see my dad smiling as he sat next to me.
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