“I told you, I had to show you-”
“Yeah, yeah, had to show me your worth,” he said mockingly. “I mean, how in the hell could you think that this was a good idea to go down on a guy during school? And where was this picture taken, anyway?”
“Boy’s bathroom.”
“Goddammit, Leah, what the hell’s wrong with you?”
“Did you see how I took his cum in my mouth?” I asked. “Are you starting to understand my value now? My maturity level?”
“You are out of your goddamn mind, girl.” I saw his thumb move across the screen of my phone a couple of times. “What the fuck am I even looking at here?”
I leaned across him so that I could see the photo. “Oh, that’s the top of Mr. Garfield’s head as he was going down on me just before you picked me up,” I explained nonchalantly.
“Mr. Garfield!?” he screamed. “The fucking teacher, Leah!?”
“I actually feel a little bad about that one, since he has no idea that I took that picture in the first place. He gave me such an intense orgasm, Tevin. Now that pressure won’t be on you anymore. Does that ease your mind a little? I hope it does.” Strangely, Tevin looked suddenly as if he were on the verge of a mental breakdown. “What’s wrong, baby?” I asked sweetly. He buried his face in his hands and shook his head violently back and forth. “If you’re worried that I lost my virginity today, don’t be! I’ve kept that in tact for you. Unless…can another person’s fingers take a girl’s virginity?”
“What horrendous transgressions in a past life did I have to deserve to get paired with you as a sibling?” he said as he slowly beat his head against his steering wheel.
“I don’t understand, Tevin,” I said slowly. “Is something the matter? Tell me what you’re thinking.”
“Psychopath,” he mumbled under his breath. “I’ve gotta tell Mom and Dad about this,” he concluded, talking more to himself than to me. “God I really don’t want to, but I have no choice now.”
“Aren’t you happy about what I’ve accomplished today, Tevin?”
“Why the fuck would any of this make me happy, Leah!? You whored yourself out to three different random people today, all in the name of, what, making me fall in love with you? You are a fucking loon, Leah!”
I felt myself starting to get a little peeved. “I just can’t win with you, Tevin,” I said, trying to keep my composure. “I offer myself up to you completely untainted, and you turn me away. I show you how I gained some experience, and you’re still not satisfied. Just tell me what you want, Tevin! What do I have to do to make you accept me as your lover?”
He threw my phone down on the floor at my feet and angrily scooped up his computer. “I drove all this way out here, so I’m going to try and compose myself a little and go get the help I need from my professor. When I get back to the car, we’re driving straight home and telling Mom and Dad all about your day at school. This is an all time low, Leah. You really fucked up. I don’t know what to do with you anymore.” With that, he stepped out of the car, slammed the door, and walked away.
I burst into tears immediately. Tevin, my best friend and rock-steady pillar, had just hurt me deeply. But his words I could handle. The main source of my frustration was at how unclear he was being. He was making me jump through all these hoops to earn his love and acceptance, and it was starting to be a little more than I thought I could bear.
But then, though my tears and angst, I got my shit together and refocused on the task at hand. It was clear, once again, that Tevin still hadn’t seen enough from me. Having been with all those college girls had clearly clouded his brain to the point that he just was never going to take me seriously until I got to his level. And since he had made it very clear that he was many levels above me, having mentioned the multiple girls and multiple sexual experiences that he had gone through, I was going to have to do something drastic to close that gap between us. And it was going to have to be now if I wanted Tevin to take me as his anytime soon.
I never ceased to amaze myself at how many wonderful ideas I could come up with in a pinch. A light bulb immediately went off over my head, and my positive outlook returned with it. I pulled down the visor mirror in front of me and gave myself a once over. I decided to take out the stupid pigtails, since Tevin was clearly not showing the appreciation for them that I had hoped for, and messed with my hair for a minute until it no longer looked in complete disarray. Then I picked up my phone, opened my car door, stepped out with authority, and walked quickly in the direction of a line of houses that stood directly across the street from campus where we were parked. One of the houses had a large sign out front with three different Greek letters written on it. I didn’t recognize any of the letters, but that didn’t matter. I could tell from the empty beer cans that were scattered across the lawn there would be a good chance that I would find exactly what I was after inside that house.
~
“Alright, we’re gonna go straight inside and tell Mom and Dad everything that you’ve done today,” Tevin said to me as we pulled into our driveway later that afternoon. “And no running off and disappearing like you did a little while ago on campus.”
“I didn’t ‘run off and disappear’, Tevin,” I explained for the third time. “I was just going for a walk and trying to clear my head.”
“Yeah, whatever you say, Leah. I was super close to calling the police to help me find you.” He turned off the car and turned to open his door. “Oh shit,” he said as he looked towards the house. Mom had decorated the house with balloons and banners in celebration of my birthday. “Goddammit, I forgot they were doing your birthday cookout today.
“Oh well, I guess we can’t have that little powwow with Mom and Dad that you planned after all,” I said with mock disappointment.
“We’re gonna have it, alright. We’ll just wait until after the cookout when everyone else has left.”
The cookout ended up being a very painless, yet very dull affair. I ended up having to converse with a bunch of people that I had no interest in, when only my big brother was on my mind. I didn’t believe that he was going to end up telling our parents what I had done, but I couldn’t for the life of me figure out why he was threatening to do so. He seemed to be playing some sort of game with me, and while I didn’t really care for it very much, it did give him a level of intrigue that I had not previously been aware of. Not that I needed any more reasons to be attracted to him, of course.
“Leah?” Tevin called out as he knocked on my bedroom door that night after the cookout. I had just gotten out of the shower and was in the process of getting dressed.
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